So I did not do it. But now I have to. She sits in one place all the time. Her right leg is so bad that she can move around only enough to get out of her own poo.
I decided a week ago that I had to do it. I haven't gotten my guts up enough to do it. I have read up on the entire process of killing and processing for meat. Nobody will help me through it so I'm afraid I'll have to go it alone.